The Certainty of Uncertainty

The Certainty of Uncertainty

I spent a good part of my life trying to grasp some

sort of security or constant in my life .

Be it an extra amount of money saved up in the bank,

a perfect relationship, a long running gig, or

a surplus of Mr. Freeze popsicles in my fuc*kin' ice box after school.

I suppose it's human nature

to desire to have some sort of

emotional security blanket that

insures our continued survival and worth.

I mean, wouldn't it rule to be garunteed that we

would have enough money to live on

for the rest of our lives . Or that we will find our

soul's match with another in this lifetime.

Or that we will live until we die of natural causes at 100 years.

But alas, there is no such thing.

No Golden Ticket,

It's our Ego's our conditioning

to keep hoping , wishing, wanting, praying for,

,and FEARING the LACK

of reassurance .

I'm starting to think that

the more we try to know how things 'will' or 'should' be , the more we

block out the beauty of life and all it's uncanny randomness .

Not only that , but we cause ourselves much unnecessary pain.

I believe having a road map of a general

direction we want to

take in our lives is a wonderful thing .

Having goals and dreams fuel our passion to achieve and grow.

With goals and dreams we plan and take action.

With action we gain preparedness.

When preparedness meets opportunity ,

we gain

'Success'

Sometimes at a high cost

But what if we factor uncertainty into the equation?

That is, go into our intentions with the mindset that :

" No matter what,

I'm 'OK'.

Regardless of the outcome"

If something doesn't go as planned

or isn't accordance with our

highest wishes,

we freak out.

Get discouraged.

.Then doubt and fear set in.

We give up.

And we move farther and farther away

from the things we want.

If we factor uncertainty into our plans ~ and release

attachment to the outcome,

we free ourselves of those rigid expectations

and begin to bend and flow

with life

as it happens

Taking away our attachment to the outcome can be very powerful.

In fact, I believe it creates the space in which good things

can come into , bringing us closer and closer

to what we love the most

Thank You

" Thank You "

I am writing this because I discovered an insight that has opened my life up to happiness I didn't know was possible. I began journaling a few years ago .. . More or less to design a road map of where I was and where I wanted to go .I wrote a few pages a day , 4 or 5 times a week . Sometimes I would write pages about stuff that annoyed me ; other times about ways I might make myself a better person ~ But the more I did it , the better I felt and the more perspective I gained of my life.

One day I started to write different that I usually would . Instead, I started my morning pages with a list of all I was thankful for . A list of things that might otherwise seem redundant or obvious .

For example :

" Thank you for today. For this time in my life to grow. For my apartment. For my car.

For all my musical gigs .For my talents . For my sense of humor. For my family and friends. For Nachos.. ect. "

I write until I can't think of anything else to be thankful for . Then the book closes and i'm off into my busy day .

This is where it interesting . I just recently moved in a new apartment , which is just a great physical space to be in . I was so happy and appreciative to be in this new space, that I made journaling the primary focus of my morning pages to express that gratitude.

So I wrote and wrote .. day after day ~ all the things I felt grateful for .. blindly and with no thought of what it may or may not do for me .

A month later started to feel different. A shift that I started to realize , and more importantly , BELIEVE that my life really IS abundant . That all these things I was listing are in my life for my appreciation and happiness. And that because I really started to feel that gratitude for things I ALREADY had , more and more of those kick ass things started appearing with hardly any effort.

The way I see it, It's simply a shift of positive energy and awareness towards some sort of love vibration. I know that sounds like some hippie ball~sweat, but I don't care because I know this as a Personal Truth.

(( I'm a big fan of personal truths :

I ask u " What is True for YOU, Bitches ?!" ))

When you are in an 'Attitude of Gratitude' , there isn't room for your ego to

bust thru the fu*kin' wall like the Kool Aid Man and

take over the show. Instead , you become selfless and beautifully connected

to Source.

I told my best friend today " There isn't one part of my day that I don't enjoy anymore ," and I ment it . That's not to say there aren't disappointments and hang ups. But there seems to always be that silver lining to everything now . At the end of the day, I feel I already have what I want . And I know more of that is coming to me because of love I have for those things . I've heard people refer to this as "Law of Attraction" .. but I like to think of it as aligning with the good that is already around .

But Don't take my word for it

Check it out for your self

What is true for you , Bitches ...

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